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3rd Place Readers Story Competition

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

posted by Readers

The third place winner in the Readers Story competition gives us a timely message about just how much abuse we should put up with in relationships, and encourages us to value ourselves more.

"Bad Boy Meets Dangerous"

by Auriel Wiccan

It basically begins when I was going through my rebellious years, the years of trying new things, having boyfriends that never lasted, going to parties and basically doing everything you shouldn’t!

I had just finished a brilliant summer of friendship, heartache, new loves and another year at school had passed, making me that bit smarter in every area.  I went out with a couple of guys, nothing serious.  But like any person, I wanted and needed companionship.  Trouble is, like too many others, unfortunately we go for the wrong types again and again, except the one I chose was far more dangerous.

Young girls with little experience, even those of great maturity, often feel that bad boy allure, and I was captivated by it so many times. I wish I hadn’t been one of the worse case scenarios, but it turns out I narrowly escaped being one.

I started seeing this guy whom I had briefly met through other guys that had been hanging around with us in the summer.  I didn’t know his past history with women or himself as I had not really talked to him.  (I didn’t even want to go out with him.  It’s ironic, I got nagged so much by him and his friends I ended up with him, sorry to say.)

I noticed after the first few weeks that he or his closest friends weren’t your “usual” bad boys.  There was something more dangerous and complicated going on in the background, but we never got to see what, as it was always masked from us.  However, I knew from the first few weeks of seeing him that he and his friends took drugs now and then (I naively thought at the time) and I didn't mind but was afraid in case my suspicions of any heavy drugs being used was clarified.

I would go up to his room when he and his friends would go out and they would tell us to stay down in the lounge but we would go up and look around.  One time when I was alone I looked around for drugs, as I had became more and more scared of the growing personality traits and changes to existing ones.  He was starting to act like a very angry person.  There were many more other signs, too, but I had to know.  He was very, very sneaky about his drug use, as drug users are, I later found out.

I ended up finding two sets of needles behind a picture in his wall which was being done up and was at the time just plasterboard.  A rush of adrenaline came over me. I was infused with various emotions at once.  It hit me like thunder … my boyfriend’s a heroin addict.

I totally freaked out. I thought, “Oh no!”  My heart sank.  I had already developed feelings for him and cared about him very much by the time all of the truth came out about what he had been doing….

I later would find spoons and other such paraphernalia in the weirdest of places and done in the sneakiest ways to avoid detection…

I was in a situation that was spiraling out of control.  I felt helpless.  I didn’t go to my parents, as I was afraid and ashamed.  I wish I had.

I’ve told myself that so many times as things could have been so different.  So much time has been wasted in my life due to this one relationship.  I hope one of you reads this that’s in a similar situation and gets help straight away as it will not get better.  He will not change, but you can get out while you still can.

I was lucky to get out.

After about a year, he started getting violent.  I was getting beatings for the most trivial things or things thrown at me or kicked or shoved.  He was drinking profusely and acted like an animal most of the time I saw him.  He was wasted and out of control, with no respect for me or anyone around me, including my family, who were subsequently threatened if I told them anything about his using or violence, which he would deny anyway.

I remember so many bad events in which things were broken, torn, ripped, even once locking myself in bathrooms which he punched holes in to get away from him, in my house which I tried to cover up.  And, of course, due to the amount and the extent of his punches on my head, I have a lot of memory loss from this relationship.  Things will pop up that I hadn’t even recalled happening and also because I have repressed it, my tender young mind probably too young and fragile to be overloaded with all these anxieties.

After you become involved in one lie with this type of thing, it grows and becomes 100.  It’s better to get away and tell the truth and what’s happened from the start.  There’s no point making up excuses for their behavior in the hope you might end back with them as you won’t, as they won’t change, only you can and only you can LEARN FROM IT and CHANGE IT and I SINCERELEY HOPE YOU DO….

I always get asked the same question, and you will be able to relate if you’re going through or have with any of this: “WHY DID YOU STAY WITH HIM IF HE TREATED YOU LIKE THAT?”

Well, for those of you that have been there, you know what I do.  For those that haven’t, the answer is different for everyone but more or less the same in a round-about way: it’s simply not that easy!  You still love the person, you want him to get better and basically imagine he will, you want to see the good side of him and the good things he’s done and not the bad, but sadly at the end of it all you intuitively know, it’s over.

And that’s where it should have been a long time ago.  He’s not meant for you and you weren’t put on this earth to be treated like garbage by ANYONE.  PLEASE REMEMBER YOU’RE WORTH MORE IN ANY SITUATION.

If I can go through this at such a young age, then you can too!  We have a cycle of life to play out, and sometimes we have to be put through horrible things in order for us to learn.  If we learn, we have knowledge.  Knowledge is power.  Power leads to attainment, attainment to enlightenment.  Everyone has it in them to fulfill anything they want and overcome the worst things, as we are not just physical: we are spiritual, intuitive beings and have a lot more in us, around us and going for us than we know.

Until the time comes for you to use this, you will not understand, but there will come a time when you have to open up and use one of the things you were born with naturally.  Then you will see that you are so much more than what you see when you look in the mirror and so much stronger, too!

Blessings all and I hope you will take from this something, anything as long as it helps you.  Don’t let any problem in a relationship fester, as it will eventually erupt one way or another like a volcano.

[Submission has been edited for brevity.]

4 Comments

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Comment by Sheila

June 28, 2006 @ 3:56 am

Auriel, I’m so glad you got out!

While studying to become a solcial worker, a friend of mine wrote an essay on “Why Women Stay with Violent Men”. She turned up the apaling fact that women leave after an average of 37 beatings. 37!

And the main reason women stay is that their abuser has so wrecked their self esteem that they think they can’t cope without him. Abusers have a particular way of talking to their victims. “It’s a cruel hard world out there, and you need me to protect you from it.” (While never actually saying what they do to protect you.) Mind you, I can think of a few politicians who talk that way.

I have read of two women who’s abusers stopped after the first offense. Both women took drastic action as soon as it happened for the first time. One woman took their son and disappeared for a week. The other waited until he’d fallen into a drunken sleep, took the poker, and assaulted him right back.

I have never, ever, EVER heard of an abuser who stopped after the second offense. IF anyone reading this is in an abusive relationship, HE IS NOT GOING TO STOP until you leave.

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Comment by Yvonne

June 28, 2006 @ 6:41 am

Auriel, I too stayed in an abusive relationship. He did not do drugs nor drank…he was simply an abusive man, who was brought up in a household where his father regularly beat up his mother. I stayed in that marriage of 6 years, because he had so totally undermind my self esteem. I really believed I could not function by myself….
Abusers are the worst kind….I am out, have been out for a number of years, with the help of a wonderful “shrink”…who made me read the book the Dance of Anger, over and over again….you see I was also brought up in an abusive household, so the behavior of my abusive husband was only too familiar to me….I had already learned all the dance step around it. I was the perfect mark. I am sure I will never ever fall prey to an abuser again…and neither will you.

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Comment by Missey Korang

July 11, 2006 @ 10:29 pm

Auriel yours was a relationship you could quit congrats!!
I grew up in a house where daddy never beat mum,he didn’t use drugs but emotionally he abused her and even us.Me and my big sister were affected the most because mummy tend to vent her anger and frustration on us to the extent of beating us with slippers and smearing pepper over our bodies.Mummy never left him because he had a very good job that paid our school fees and our bills and maybe because she loved him.As a result i had a bitter childhood i would rather forget. I grew up timid and angry. I never got to see a shrink (how many do you see in Africa anyway). But i determined to forget my bitter past and read books that helped me.

Please if u’re reading this,beware what abusive relationships can do to people around you. It did me great harm. PLEASE AVOID IT!!

Comment by Marie Jacquelyne

August 30, 2006 @ 6:24 am

I had remarried and into the 4 months of marriage, on nite he lifted his hand to hit me and his son stopped him.

Next day when he arrived from work, I had moved out, went to see my lawyer friend and got a divorce and never returned no matter what promises he made.

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